This is where I admit I am a horrible mother. I have a really hard time connecting with my babies as fetuses. While pregnant with Alex, I thought that it would just be love at first sight. But then he was born and I still didn't magically love him. Through late nights, cuddling, and looking at his beautiful face I developed a deep love for that little baby.
I thought things would be easier the second time. Then I saw Edison. Oh boy. I am ashamed to admit that my first thought was, "What's wrong with his face?" Edison had a birthmark in the middle of his forehead and seemed so pink and puffy. It wasn't even a face that "Only a mother could love!" Sam of course loved him immediately because Sam is a better person.
But Edison knew how to work it and I fell for him. I fell in love with his crooked toes and chunky fingers. He became so beautiful to me. It didn't take very long for me to realize that he was a beautiful kid, and the newborn puffiness just wasn't flattering. I don't know what was wrong with my brain at first. This is a crazy cute kid. We like to call him Our Ugly Duckling. We were so busy thinking we had a funny-looking duck when we actually had a perfect swan.