This is where I admit I am a horrible mother. I have a really hard time connecting with my babies as fetuses. While pregnant with Alex, I thought that it would just be love at first sight. But then he was born and I still didn't magically love him. Through late nights, cuddling, and looking at his beautiful face I developed a deep love for that little baby.
I thought things would be easier the second time. Then I saw Edison. Oh boy. I am ashamed to admit that my first thought was, "What's wrong with his face?" Edison had a birthmark in the middle of his forehead and seemed so pink and puffy. It wasn't even a face that "Only a mother could love!" Sam of course loved him immediately because Sam is a better person.
But Edison knew how to work it and I fell for him. I fell in love with his crooked toes and chunky fingers. He became so beautiful to me. It didn't take very long for me to realize that he was a beautiful kid, and the newborn puffiness just wasn't flattering. I don't know what was wrong with my brain at first. This is a crazy cute kid. We like to call him Our Ugly Duckling. We were so busy thinking we had a funny-looking duck when we actually had a perfect swan.
jeff felt the same way about Evelynn. he tells me all the time how ugly he thought she was when she was new. but now he can't stop telling her what a beautiful girl she is. i am not a believer that my kids are THE cutest kids on earth, but i am a fan of em. your kids on the other hand... total studs.
ReplyDeleteMy first thought when I saw Luke was, "Um...that's not my baby. Please bring me the right one." I NEVER expected to have a red-headed kid. But...now I love my little ginger. :) Anyway...just wanted to let you know you're not alone.
ReplyDeleteRachael's day 1 nickname? Mr. Magoo.
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