Pregnancy Reflection

The end is near. Very near. My due date is only two days away. I feel like this whole pregnancy has gone quickly. But other times I think about how I got pregnant two weeks after moving to North Dakota. And I feel like we have lived here for years.

Emily: Do I look pregnant?
Sam: Yes. You are pregnant.
Emily: Well, there used to be a point where I didn't look pregnant.
Sam: I hate to break it to you, but you are passed that point.

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- Since 36 weeks, I have been dilated to 2 cm.
- At 39 weeks, I was 50% effaced, -3 station.
- I can't see my feet.
- I didn't get a linea nigra this pregnancy. That was a staple of my last two pregnancies so I am not sure why I don't have one this time.
- My belly button did something really funky. With the first two pregnancies, it flattened out but this time, the skin on top has been folding over. I think it looks like a nose and I am pretty sure it looks worse than the normal popping out belly buttons. So strange.
- At 38 weeks, the doctor offered to strip my membranes. I said, "Today?!" She said, "Spoken like a mom who has other things to do." Yeah, I've got time. She offered again at my 39 week appointment.
- Every time I feel a slight pain, I freeze to see what kind of pain it is. Labor is coming so soon!
- We talk about the baby by name when we are at home. It is really difficult to not say it to people on the phone or in person. Sam and I have both struggled with our words as we try to avoid saying his name. It will be nice to finally birth the baby so we can give him the name and then tell everyone. The middle name is finally decided, as of our date on Friday night. Sam made the decision for the middle name and it took me a while to come around, but now I am more comfortable with it.

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Workout Routine:
Is this a joke? I didn't workout at all. I chased two toddlers around, but I did not formally workout. Ever.

Most surprising symptom:
It is more like a lack of symptoms. I have had very little swelling. I am still wearing my wedding rings! I plan to leave them home when I go to the hospital, but it has been nice to wear them the whole pregnancy.

Favorite part:
Talking to the boys about the baby and hearing their thoughts about it. Alex is especially entertaining. Just a few days ago he said, "I don't want to go back in your belly! It is too dark in there!"

Alex: Can we get a sister instead?
Sam: No, we ordered a boy this time.
Emily, thinking: Excuse me. Ordered?
Alex: I don't want another brother. I want a sister to play with at home. Can we please get a sister?! (Fake whining)

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Most terrifying part:
Waiting for six weeks to find out if he had Trisomy 18. It was definitely a trial of my faith as I waited to learn if I would get to meet my baby boy or see him reach any milestones.

Most frequent craving:
Food. It was hard to avoid eating. I craved root beer floats, grapefruit, apples, french fries, macaroni and cheese, goldfish, and popcorn.

Most annoying symptom:
I am so tempted to say the weight gain but the groin pain I have had for about eight weeks far outweighs (haha, get it?) the fact that I am getting fat. The pain is almost debilitating.

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Weirdest symptom:
The dreams about labor. This didn't happen with Alex but it did with Edison. It started a few nights ago and now every night I dream that I am in labor. By the time it actually happens, I will have experienced it in my dreams multiple times.

Funniest memory:
I told my sister the first initial of the baby's name and she started trying to guess. She was guessing names that would be a better match for a black woman. It was hysterical. Then we told our friends the first letter and they guessed even worse names. Yikes.

Weight gain:
I don't really want to talk about it. Even though I started 10 pounds lighter than I did with Alex and Edison, I have managed to gain the most weight this pregnancy. I only gained 25 pounds with Alex and 37 with Edison. However, I would like to attribute the weight gain this pregnancy to not losing any weight during the first trimester. I was gaining weight from the very beginning.
 Starting weight - 120 pounds
First trimester - No weight loss
Current weight - 160 pounds

Ten freezer meals:
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 Every morning I wake up and wonder if the baby will have a birthday on that day. So far, no luck. But I have learned: this baby will come out eventually. I am so excited to snuggle him!


Spencer and Anna said...

Ugh. Groin pain. I didn't have it with Grace, but totally did with Luke. I hope baby comes out soon!

Sarah said...

You weighed 10+ pounds less than me after already having 2 kids! You can never say I weigh 100 pounds again!

Jershelly said...

You are so close! I didn't notice a linea nigra when I was pregnant with Landon until after I gave birth. Then there was a very distinct line down my abdomen. Weird. I don't think I had it at all with Porter though. Not that I remember at least.

Rachael and Jeff Downs said...

I think you've looked AMAZING this pregnancy!! And the groin pain is THE WORST...I'm not looking forward to it with my next pregnancies. I can't wait to hear for the announcement of baby boy, so I'm crossing all my fingers and toes for you! Good luck!!

Geevz said...

I really liked this post and may steal the format. It's crazy how different each pregnancy is.

And it's funny because I went on a freezer meal extravaganza yesterday :) I'm sending you vibes for an ideal labor that starts soon!

Rachel said...

Yes, thankfully no one is pregnant forever.
I had no idea you thought the baby had trisomy 18. I'm so sorry! That is so scary. Pregnancies are hard for me because of all that scariness. Really hard. I'm so glad the test results came back negative.
Good luck with the upcoming days! So exciting that you're almost done!

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